Last October - Superheaven

I spent the end of last October crying on your shoulder

I’ll just never win

We’re going through this

I’m not even there.

I’m never there

My mind, it could use a little peace and quiet

My soul wouldn’t mind a warm place to hide

My ears are red and sore from always standing in the snow

My lungs need air.

I spent it on all the «thanks yous» and «goodbyes.»

I’m scared.

I’m helpless.

I’m shaking.

I’m weak

My bones, I feel them breaking

I’m tired of losing against me

I’m lost.

I can’t win

My tongue is bleeding red from all the things I can’t say

My hands are clawing at the dirt to dig up anything

I can’t say I didn’t wish for this before

I’m ashamed.

I don’t deserve to be here anymore

I’m scared.

I’m helpless.

I’m shaking.

I’m weak

My bones, I feel them breaking

I’m tired of losing against me

I’m lost.

I can’t win