Don't Look Down - IVAN B

I’m scared I’m wasting my time

Scared I’m losing control of my life

I’m scared of commitment — of calling anything mine

I would be lying if I told you, «I'm fine»

Serving these tables to put some food in my stomach

I’m tired of seeing my mom and say «Don't worry, it’s coming»

My heart is racing, I’m running to anything more than nothing

Drowning in debt and I’m trying to pull us above it

Tell me everything will be okay

Tell me why does everybody got to fade away

Am I crossing your mind?

'Cause you been all up in mine

But if I saw you, I don’t know what I would say

Instead of being together, I need to get it together

Instead of writing these letters, I want to live to remember

Am I better from the past?

Yeah, I wonder what I’ll know

Haunted by a dream is when you really let it go

I guess things happen for a reason

But I’ma never leave anything at chance

At first glance I’m looking for God’s hands

The Devil’s looking at me like, «Homie, come dance»

My grandma’s getting sicker, I’m never there when I can be

See, my brother feeling lost, I guess it runs in the family

People telling me this music should be a plan B

How could you judge me if you don’t understand me?

No breaks, one-twenty goin' in

Destiny’s calling, I’m like, «Baby, come on in»

Right now it feels like do-or-die, every day it’s, «Who am I?»

You call it nine-to-five, man, I call it suicide

I see what they can’t see;

this is all that I can be

Rather be homeless and broke than be labeled as «happy»

They don’t understand me 'cause no one can stand me

It’s always the outsiders who end up outstanding

I lost a hundred dollars on a bet

It’s not a lot of money, but it said a lot about me

In the moment, guess I didn’t understand it

When nothing is certain, don’t ever take it for granted

Pride is a poison that infested our planet

Greed is okay, well, that’s the way that they brand it

Our view of everything is such a mess

Having less than we deserve is our perception of happiness

What am I supposed to do?

They say, «Follow the steps, stick to the guidelines»

If I listen to that, I’m just a kid on the sideline

What’s in your eyes?

I don’t care 'bout your eyeline

Never cared about all of that

Money got people snappin' for their quarter back

If I get it, I’ma give it back

I feel like happiness is something everybody should have

But we are who we are

I’ve been lost in the dark, while I’ve been shooting for stars

Looking for love, like is it really that hard?

Or just have someone who’s there when it’s all falling apart

But every scar only makes your heart stronger

Hold on, just fight a little longer

I ponder these lines while mopping floors every night

That’s when you feel the fatigue and all your hunger

It’s been killing me, keep going what they’re telling me

More regrets than memories, sometimes you gotta let it be

The past ain’t ahead of me, I got to give my best

How do I make change if I don’t give you my two cents?

I look around, I see the dying of youth

While you’re picking up a bottle, let me pour you the truth

I used to be like all of you, like you got nothing to lose

Nobody want a commitment when everybody’s been used

Step in my conscience, my heart is the pilot

The past is behind you, but lately I’ve been behind it

I’m finding I’ve been placed in happiness in people who leave

And they love it when you’re broken, hate you when you achieve

It’s like I can never be me, the world is just a routine

Telling you how to live and the certain value it brings

Like rings, summer flings, things ain’t what they seem

So, don’t you ever buy the happiness they sell on the screen

'Cause happiness ain’t a store bought can

And love isn’t found in just a one-night dance

I’m looking at the sky like, «Give me one more chance»

I’m tired of sitting in my room like I know I can

Nothing’s done until you do it, just look at what I’m pursuing

To die like what you’re doing, my girl is 'cause of my music

It was lose her or lose it, my heart’s in the music

If I didn’t, I’d be dead, so I went and I choose it

Trying to figure it out, and this ain’t even about us

I’m trying to be something more, so that my kids can be proud of

I’m trying to show everybody there’s not much worth in these dollars

Out here making a difference, don’t you give up

Every line that I’m writing is just for you to get up

Love is barely an offer yet we don’t give it enough

Man, what’s the point of the top if nobody wants to look up?

So, look up, look up

Don’t look down

Look up, look up

Don’t look down

Don’t look down