Something Inside My Head - Akala

They wonder why the caged bird sings

But even worse a pain

Is the bird with lead wings

It’s like I’m on my own town

But can’t speak the language

Crowded to the point of suffocation

Still feel stranded

What bandage could heal scars invisible

Existing is easy it’s living that is difficult

It’s like a ritual

I get close to believing

Then I put a fortress up to close in my feelings

Dreaming, so close to achieving

Then I throw it all away

Cos I’m scared to receive it

Living every day in my shadow

I find my resolve

When the cold night swallows that shadow

I travel through the landscape

Searching for why

But the question follows everywhere I go

Like the sky

You don’t understand my soul

Well neither do I

It’s just something inside my head

Won’t set me free

Won’t let me be

It’s just something inside my head

Comin in between you and me

It’s just something inside my head

I wasn’t born this way

My condition was learned

Once bitten twice shy I don’t wanna be burned

When you travel a passage

That leaves your soul ravaged

Your mind waxes placid to limit the damage

Your reaction is passive

Whether you like it or not

You cannot win whether you fight it or not

Your brain swallows the pain and buries it instead

Now.

It’s just something that guides my

Something that drives my

Something inside my head

I offend myself then avenge myself

And pretend it helps to defend myself

I believe myself then deceive myself

To retrieve myself I don’t need my help

Whether the brave myself or slave myself

It’s strange every day I’m not the same myself

I love myself then I hate myself