Anymore - Anna Akana

He was

Summer surprises, spicy kisses

Hands laced crossing bay bridges

No presents on Christmas

Our wedding rings were spider, neon green

And that red squishy thing from an arcade by the sea

Skin and bone, brains and brave

An avocado tree and all the humming birds that came

He’s a flat tire on the curb

Shattered glass on the freeway

But nobody got hurt

He was a bullet

I didn’t wanna dodge

But to split straight through me

So I could peer through the bloody wound in my body

And say you were here

And it’s not what I wanted

But you’re no longer mine

Should’ve moved on by now

Should’ve left us behind

I don’t wanna love you

But I can’t cut the cord

I don’t wanna love you

Anymore

Anymore

I’ve OD’ed on fantasies

Of you bursting into roses on my doorstep

Coughing up regrets

A bouquet of apologies in hand

Saying «I'm so sorry darling

Can’t you understand?»

Our unborn children

Whisper in my ear

Dangle your last name

Like a promise that I’ll never wear

I’m bleeding watercolors

Gone is the furious flutter

Hello hello love, have you moved on to another?

You fold yourself into an origami prince

Convince yourself that one day when it’s right you will commit

But I know you better than that baby

Can’t you just admit

You don’t want a real girl

What you want doesn’t exist

And it’s not what I wanted

But you’re no longer mine

Should’ve moved on by now

Should’ve left us behind

I don’t wanna love you

But I can’t cut the cord

I don’t wanna love you

Anymore

Anymore

Anymore

Anymore

And it’s not what I wanted

But you’re no longer mine

Should’ve moved on by now

Should’ve left us behind

I don’t wanna love you

But I can’t cut the cord

I don’t wanna love you