New Hell - Aphasia

Twenty years of resentment has brought us to this

I’ve tried

I’ve pried

How can you sleep at night?

You played your part

Against me from the start

Was my best interest ever at heart?

Always to blame

Always felt the same

Cut me out of your frame and forget my name

Introduce me to a New Hell

Introduce me to a New Hell

Disgrace

A waste

Just a bitter taste

A hell that dwells in depths of deception

And makes me rethink everything I’ve ever known

Everything I’ve ever known

Why is it that I’ve always needed you, but you only needed me

When it was convenient for you

All these years I’ve tried to feel love

But I’ve only felt pushed further away

You were supposed to guide me

And make me feel worth something

More than the dirt that lies beneath your feet

More than the burden of my fathers seed

For twenty years I’ve tried to make you see

That caring for me should have come so easily

Day after day I tear myself apart from the inside out

I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of my mother’s love

I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of my mother’s love

Disgrace

A waste

Just a bitter taste

A hell that dwells in depths of deception

And makes me rethink everything I’ve ever known

Everything I’ve ever known

Why is it that I’ve always needed you, but you only needed me

When it was convenient for you

Day after day I tear myself apart from the inside out

And for what?

I’ve shed every piece of myself in search of a new hell