The Clarity of Morning - Apologies, I Have None, Apologies I Have None

A master actor, a perfect liar

All smiles played out with expert timing

It starts like rust, slow and silent

But grows like fire, swift and violent

I walk much slower now I’ve got no direction

All bends are blind, all cracks chasms

I love and hate in equal measures the freedom from precision

That living like this offers, but habits are so easily formed

And not so easily forgotten

It’s nothing that some wine can’t sort out

Hit the offy, back a bottle

Drop two sleeping pills and hope to pass out

The run has got me spinning around and down and out

I hate the person I’ve become

Hate the foil, hate the filters

Hate the blister packs but I won’t stop

The run has got me spinning around and down and out

Praying that the clarity of morning brings

A peace to ease the mourning of

A loss of control as two lives split in half from a whole

She’d say 'I miss you when you’re gone'

And I would wish that I was off anywhere else

I’m sorry, when I said I didn’t love you

What I meant was I hate myself