Outsider - Assemblage 23

When the door’s always closed

Isolation imposed

I try the best I can

But the gulf is too wide

And I can’t stand astride

Such a gigantic span

This impossible distance

Obscures my existence

Like fog hugging autumn shores

And it’s building inside

With each wound to my pride

I can’t take this anymore

I’m standing right here

I’ve not disappeared

And yet you look right through me

Do I not exist?

A presence unmissed

An unseen identity

I’m on the outside

Looking inward

These impenetrable walls restrain me

I could tear them down

But I’m afraid

Of what is on the other side

It’s not my intention

To covet attention

At least no more than I’m due

But you turned your back

And left me in the black

With nothing I could cling to

Was it too much to ask

Such an abhorrent task

To simply acknowledge me?

Some small recognition

To raze this partition

That makes me feel so empty

I’m on the outside

Looking inward

These impenetrable walls restrain me

I could tear them down

But I’m afraid

Of what is on the other side

I’m at the point I might break

Alone and displaced

An unwelcome nobody

I’m a vessel adrift

Traversing the rift

Consumed by an angry sea

Pushed aside by the crowd

And I’m screaming out loud

Until my voice is raw

But I won’t go away

From this perverse ballet

As long as I’ve breath to draw

I’m on the outside

Looking inward

These impenetrable walls restrain me

I could tear them down

But I’m afraid

Of what is on the other side