closer - awakebutstillinbed

I passed out, I couldn’t stay awake

Today’s not unlike other days

That led me to this place

They all feel the same, the same, the same

I struggle to build memories

And I can’t feel what’s inside of me

Or navigate this space

At all

But all these thoughts and fears and words that

Imply I’m not trying

And hyper fixate on my failures

Only serve myself

Caught in the days where the lines bleed together

Between the last scourge and the next failure

Seems every time that I’ve felt my life changing

It’s not good or bad, just an altered arrangement

And I see it now

And I see it now

My hopes betray reality

And I can’t see what’s in front of me

I’m consumed in a grind

With nothing to show for all this time

These moments pass and then they fade

Homogenize into the gray:

Always exhausted, asleep in broad daylight

I wish I could sleep for the rest of my life

Too sore to move, awake but still in bed

Glued to my sheets and trapped in my head

I’m calling it quits, I was fucked from the start

And all of the waiting tore me apart

The endless cycle crushes my heart

Our lives fall to shit, reform and restart

We get up each morning, the past on our shoulders

And live out the same days over and over

We fall into bed, brush the past from our shoulders

And relive the nightmare over and over

Do you see it now?

Do you see it now?

You read me like a book

Didn’t you?