On My Heels - BASECAMP

I wish I would’ve said it

Just cleared the air

I was so scared to break you

But too blind to care

I painted me wiser

And covered my eyes

Shrouded in shame

Proud of my pain

Layered with lies

The tears that dried and stained our skin

The cracks that grew and spread us thin

The pace at which I run from it

The memories I can’t stomach

The harm that I’ve done

The shell I’ve become

The beast that stays on my heels

Reminder that’s all too real

Of harm that I’ve done

Of what I’ve become

This wasn’t what I wanted

Or what you deserved

And I was so sure I could fix it

Before you returned

But with bricks and mortar

We sealed our borders off

The tears that dried and stained our skin

The empty room where love had been

The pace at which I run from it

The memories I can’t stomach

The harm that I’ve done

The shell I’ve become

The beast that stays on my heels

Reminder that’s all too real

Of harm that I’ve done

Of what I’ve become

Sunken and slow

You turn your eyes away from me

You’re moving off

It’s all wrong

No It’s all wrong

Sunken and slow

You turn your eyes away from here

Fought for so long

It’s all wrong

No it’s all wrong