Ode To The Rock'n'Roller - Beardfish

She still thinks about him from time to time

It can be just a familiar feeling running through her

What would he have thought about this and that

Once upon a time he made her heart beat faster

Now he’s more of a ghost who haunts her

And her husband can never know

Even with the new life that grows inside her

She still thinks about him from time to time

Ten years have passed since they lived together

Living through the trials of figuring out

That they were no good for each other

His love was dark and made hers darker

The kind of violence that leaves no bruises

Sings like when a hammer hits steel and resonates along her spine

Now he’s more of a ghost who haunts her

And her husband can never know

Even with the new life that grows inside her

She still thinks about him from time to time

He’s finished with his letter he thinks it sounds decent enough

It must be a real letter because that’s the way you deal with love

«I cannot believe it’s been so long since we last spoke

You should see me now and how my life is just a joke

Everything I do reminds me of everything we used to do»

She didn’t know that he felt this way

«How could he keep this from me

Even though I couldn’t stay

I still feel for him in some funny way»

Can I come closer

Can’t you come closer

Could we be closer

Would you want to meet me, just to see you would be nice

If there’s nothing left, if we’re like strangers then that’s that

Everything would be a waste of time, I’d might as well end it all

As they cling onto the past

Everything changes fast

While spying on her online

There’s an unwelcome surprise

He can see that she’s with child

There’s no time for a letter now he just wanna leave but he doesn’t know how

As the memories turn grey

Only one way left to make it all go away

Black magic in my broken heart

It’s the only reason it’s still beating

Black magic in my shattered heart

I take my life if we must be apart

Gather my thoughts, I cry while they align

All play their part in the crime

Creeping and crawling, soon we stand

All hail by my command

There’s darkness living in my heart

I take my life if we must be apart

Gather my thoughts, I cry while they align

All play their part in the crime

Creeping and crawling, soon we stand

All hail by my command

Black magic lives inside my heart

It’s the only reason it’s still beating

Black magic in a shattered heart

I take my life if we must be apart

Her eyes are all I see as she embraces me

I’m drowning in a dream while floating down the stream

She feels him can’t let go

He’s there, he’s in her head

Oh let this be a dream

He can’t be dead

She still thinks about him from time to time

She remembers that night when she found him laying

Curled up like a ball inside a circle of candle lights

He wasn’t dead, he wasn’t there, it wasn’t him no more

He couldn’t speak from all the pills he’d swallowed

The sight of his harrowed face could have made her sick

And when she sat by his side, holding his hand

The only words she could decipher were «black magic»

She reads the letter again, she knows it now by heart keeps it in a drawer

along with some old photographs

It’s a picture of a younger her together with someone she once loved

He lost his mind and he said it was because of her

She looks into her newborn daughter’s eyes

She still thinks about him from time to time