Claustrophobic - Before I Turn

Chin to my knees, wrists interlocked

I’m rocking back and forth, I’m trapped in my thoughts

They hit me just like the cognizance

Of how I killed my lover and I have no defence

Chin to my knees, wrists interlocked

I’m rocking back and forth, I’m trapped in my thoughts

Lurking like a venomous snake, they grasp onto my throat

Somehow with bloodshot eyes, it feels like I’ve been left afloat

So someone fix me, make me new with clay and mud

Anti-tremor medication surging through my blood

Claustrophobic, I am so sick

I have manic depressive symptoms of a schizophrenic

Need a medic, I’m emphatic

Of how I need to rid this memory from my head

Claustrophobic, I am so sick

I have manic depressive symptoms of a schizophrenic

Need a medic, I’m emphatic

Of how I need to rid this memory from my head

The pain and hatred

Will always be something

I remember forever

And ever and after

Everybody’s screaming, they’re sounding the alarms

They take away sharp objects so I can’t cut my arms

They tell me that I’m impulsive 'cause I’m a fucking mess

I shut my eyes and picture her body in that bloody dress

«Are you okay?», what do you say?

«Thank you, doctor, for the pills that you gave me today»

Voices like the walls, in my head, in the halls

The doctors and delusions, I can’t even think at all

The pain and hatred

Will always be something I

The pain and hatred

Will always be something

I remember forever

And ever and after

Voices like the walls, in my head, in the halls

The doctors and delusions, I can’t even think at all

They’re closing in on me now and I can’t breathe

I want to be alone but they’ll never, ever leave

Voices like the walls, in my head, in the halls

The doctors and delusions, I can’t even think at all

They’re closing in on me now and I can’t fucking breathe

I want to be alone but they’ll never, ever leave