I Am Not Nothing - Beth Crowley

No one ever made me feel as small as you did

No one made me feel as cursed

I’d lie awake in bed just staring at the ceiling

Wondering if things would get worse

I was trapped under your thumb

Believing when you called it love

But I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

I kept my head above the water

'Til the moment when all the elements aligned

And I could fly away to heal my broken spirit

And leave my demons far behind

You always said that I was weak

But the bravest thing I did was leave

So I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

Looking up at the sky

I think I see the start of a sunrise

And I will forgive myself

And start to let it go

Accept that who you chose to be

Was out of my control

And though it might be hard

To begin again

I’ll write myself a brand new story

With a happy end

I survived

So tonight

I am taking back my life

And I’ll show you

That I am not nothing

I’ll show you

That I am not nothing