Sink Into The Soil - Bloom

Looking back on how it began\nSo young, so naive\nDesperate to be like them\nOr anyone but me\nCraving their validation\nFor a sense of confirmation\nThe feeling I needed\nIt’s just a phase\nIt can’t always be this way\nPlease erase\nThis fucking pain\nOne day I’ll be fine\nIt’s just temporary\nThe ache inside my head\nI wish I could be numb instead\nFalse promises, false assurance\nWhere do I go from here?\nIt’s tearing me at the seams\nThe world is full of colour\nBut all I see is grey\nI long for the tone to change\nView the world in a new way\nAn endless cycle\nThat I can’t break\nMaybe it’s just my fate\nI could’ve stopped but just let it happen\nHow could I’ve known back then?\nI should but I’m too scared to try\nIf things just stay the same\nWill I always feel this way?\nOne day I’ll be fine\nIt’s just temporary\nThe ache inside my head\nI wish I could be numb instead\nFalse promises, false assurance\nWhere do I go from here?\nIt’s tearing me at the seams\nFell down the rabbit hole\nWhere a grey cloud hung above\nI thought I could climb out\nOnce I was finally loved\nThe clouds they stayed around\nAs I kept falling down\nAnd although I’m loved now\nI haven’t made it out\nClouds turn into rain\nI sink into the soil\nThis is where I’ll stay\nFill the hole\nWhere I lay\nLet water flow\nAnd my skin decay\nIs this where I’ll always be?\nWill things ever change for me?\nI can’t stay here\nCan I live on in your memory?\nWhat will one more decade change?\nWhat will one more day?\nPlease give me a reason to stay