trying - brakence

I hold onto patience for them

And reflect their mannerisms when I can’t focus

Tired of selfish things I’ve said never but never really spoken

I can’t take back what I did when I forgot

So I lack poise and yeah I noticed

But I drove it into the ground like it was poison

And I said I got a problem, will you show me?

But just because I need your help don’t mean it’s important

And now…

None of us knows, Major.

We don’t know who we are

You know

We don’t know where we are

Maybe we’re on a spaceship

You know

Going to another planet

Maybe we’re all insane

You know

Or maybe this is all a mirage, an illusion

Perhaps that’s who we are…

Just know I’m trying

But I faked you out on my end

And behind those shaded words

I partake in limbo, not violence

Cause I’m just trying to feel like

More than my entry

I can’t tell by deceit I’m alright and

It’s 'bout time I show I’ve been lying 'cause I can’t wait back for it here

The only fear I’m in love with is pointless

I don’t need luck I need somebody’s help for a minute

'Cause I’ve tried long enough

Pray I lost, I am done

Change my mind 'cause I’ll be broken if there’s nothing left to say

Just know I’m trying

But within a second it’s timed in

Minding every word, and it’s taking over afraid to love

But I will keep you around

You say I’m onto something, I doubt it

I find God in mind

Now I’m waking up and taking on my pride