Absolutely Disgusting - British India

She said that’s absolutely disgusting

The way you treat these girls

And I got all defensive

But I knew she wasn’t wrong

And I tried to think of excuses

A way to justify

But all that I could think of

The biggest lie

And that’s absolutely unmanageable

To think of you this much

We tell each-other so much

But I always leave out half

'Cause I don’t want you to know me

And the way I really am

And I don’t want to subject you

To this again

(One, two, three, four)

You know it’s absolutely pathetic

The way I used you up

And I told you things I didn’t mean

To make you stick around

When you realise I’m a liar

And you’ve wasted all these years

It’ll hurt you much more than it hurts me

It hurts me

You know it’s absolute insanity

As waking up these days

And the sea of blood on TV

The endless grey parade

And our hearts have all been pulped up

Like the reddest things on earth

So we cut each-other open

And drink the hurt

Drink the hurt

You know it’s absolutely impossible

To get out of here alive

You’ll get 80 years if you’re lucky

Before you start to die

In the hospitals and hallways

Where we lean against the walls

And we dream about how we were long before

Long before

You know I’m absolutely terrified

That I’ll wake up one day

And they’ll be no-one left here

Who’ll put up with me this way

And you’ll all say I deserved it

You’ll all say we all told you so

And I’ll have to admit that I should have known

Should have known

And it’s absolutely wonderful

To speak to you again

A better job, new boyfriend

Guess all it takes is time

And I hope I get there someday

'Cause I know I’m not there yet

But I swear to god in heaven

I’m not scared

I’m not scared

I’m not scared

I’m not scared

And so it’s absolutely disgusting