You Should Be Hated Here - Carissa's Wierd

they’re all surrounding

we’re both hoping

failing slowly

attempting one thing to stand up

with dignity

to walk away

do the time to prove it all

the new lines

wrapped my eyes around

the scars upon my head

were only meant

to spell apologies

there’s a (tent full of?)

was impossible to find

but until you find me

standing stupid looking blind

(??? I could do anything

right ??

to say that you were wrong

this night is guaranteed to all turn black

with memories that haunt the past)

i’m only here to fall apart

you’ve been angry from the start

but I know these trainwrecks happen all the time

everything no one knows

you should be hated here by now

this was the prettiest lie that I told tonight

it’s been the prettiest lie that I told all year

the unmade bed inside the room

where I don’t feel comfortable at all

where blankets stare at me for hours

and I stare right back so self righteously

(it could be now

and I don’t feel proud

i’m so sorry now

i’m sorry now)

and it all comes down to composure that’s been lost

when it all comes down to composure that’s been lost