Hologram - Clepsydra

I let my mind run

Beyond the edge of my loneliness;

I don’t want to accept it;

I don’t want to look at the real world

I write without ideas: no story to tell

And I struggle with my reluctant pen;

Which sticks on the paper with mortal ennui

And my hand doesn’t seem to move anymore

What is happening to me once again?

I can’t realize the sense, the sense

The movement of this machine;

I was wrong wanting to love you again

But thinking it over, it wasn’t me who

Came back to you

My steps echoes on the night’s empty street

My legs are carrying me leadlessly: a party?

Too many people, pretending to amuse themselves

While my steps are running I look for a new dream

And maybe it will be just a hologram!

And maybe one day the machine will be lit

And maybe one day this hologram will come to life

And maybe it will give the way to this new dream

«Bring me another drink, please.»

And slowly, the withdrawal starts;

«Don't stare at me like this!

You know I can’t stand it.»

My look betrays my thoughts

But with a little effort I’ll be able to smile

What is happening to me once again?

Leave me alone, let me fall

And don’t stop, and don’t stop my crazy run towards nothing

Leave me at this distance where all this doesn’t, doesn’t exist

I will return when I have concealed my hologram

In the most hidden part of my mind;

Where time will never destroy this hue

Where time neither exists for you!

The withdrawal is delaying

I want to switch it off;

I want to stop this fucking machine;

…waiting for better times

Where are you?

Where do you hide?

But in the end, what do I really want?

A last hologram, just the last one

And then, I promise!

I’ll look for another dream!!!