Guilt Free - Conceptions

I will scream

Until my lungs

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The pressure

It’s building up inside, it’s not like it’s happened before

It’s building up inside, it’s not like this happened before

And it’s hard to remember this, it still makes me sick

As the days grow longer, and time pulls us apart

And as I fade away, have I done enough

For those I love to be proud of me?

For my friends and for my family

I’ll be with you, forever and always

So let me go

Nothing stays the same

Your gold will wither into grey

Not everything we love, grows with age

Your roses will blossom and fade away

Take me away, take me, so I can live guilt free

And I’ll hold onto these memories

And every last thing you ever said to me

And I promise to remember you for who you are

And not who you wanted to be

But I’m so close to giving up

Your judgements sink in

And I’ve had enough

Of all the things I love so much

I’m drowning, you let me

And I’m scared of my regrets

I’m terrified there will be nothing left

Just the thought, it leaves my heart racing in my chest

My heart’s racing in my chest

But I’ll be with you, forever and always

Everything will change

The place where your possessions used to lay

The comfort of your words that you used to say

Your face before your beauty decays

The safety of your arms where I used to stay

Nothing stays the same

Your gold will wither into grey

Your roses will blossom and fade away

Not everything we love grows with age

That’s why we remember, and never forget

The way things used to be