Wreckage - Convictions

I want to feel life leave these hands

Convinced I should not exist without worth as a man

A failure I have been cast

My identity is a vacant mask

Been hiding this for years, so here’s my final act

The nails in Your wrist cut the blades from mine

God, I tried

I’m blinded on a midnight drive

I’m dying for Your light

I’m in a head-on collision

Burned past all recognition

Breathing in smoke and dust

Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood

This reoccurring condition

Drives me to it over and over and over

I’m piling up the wreckage

Is this the only way to end it?

I need a miracle!

God, You get more lost with every suicidal thought

I’m stranded directionless, fatally flawed

Where were You when they deemed me worthless?

Where are You when I’m struck by serpents

When depression breaks the surface

When I’m cold, when I’m lying unconscious?

Heart struggling to hear it’s calling

Heart struggling to hear it’s calling

I’m blinded on a midnight drive

I’m dying for Your light

I’m in a head-on collision

Burned past all recognition

Breathing in smoke and dust

Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood

This reoccurring condition

Drives me to it over and over and over

I’m piling up the wreckage

Is this the only way to end it?

I need a miracle!

If You love as you say You love

Then give me something that’s tangible

If You say You’re always in control

Then stop my hand and pull the gun from my throat

Salvage my soul

Reclaim this life or I swear I’ll end it myself

I’m in a head-on collision

Burned past all recognition

Breathing in smoke and dust

Taste the dirt, fuel, and blood

This reoccurring condition

Drives me to it over and over and over

I’m piling up the wreckage

Is this the only way to end it?

I’m piling up the wreckage

Is this the only way to end it?

I need a miracle!