I Messed Up - Emanny, Joe Budden

This wasn’t what it’s supposed to be

I went from having fun to having fantasies

And I had every chance to get you away from me

But now I am just coming back like a feen

You went from a slide to a friend

Then a lover now you’re everything

Tryna lie and tell myself that you ain’t anything

But I’m in your bed with my phone off

Should be out the door but I doze off

When I know I should be leaving

But I can’t control how I am feeling

I messed up I started to care

Wish I could leave her right after we finished

But I stay in it

I messed up I feel in love with her

Not what I wanted or needed

But found it now tryna lose it

I messed up I messed up I messed up yeah

Never did it occur to me

That one night of passion could ever

Lead to you being the one for me

Can’t believe I let you get close to me

I am out of my mind to ever think that I could

Keep this up without getting caught up with the reality

Try and lie and tell myself you don’t mean anything

But I’m in your bed with my clothes off

Should put a condom on but we go raw

And I know I might be tripping

But I can’t ignore how you’re feeling

I messed up I started to care

Wish I could leave her right after we finished

But I stay in it

I messed up I fell in love with her

Not what I wanted or needed

But found it now tryna lose it

I messed up I messed up I messed up yeah

I mean… we all do.

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I mean we started out respectable

Was just a good time but it opened mind when she was bisexual

And now I am confused as I stare at the ceiling

While laying in bed with you no senses like a vegetable

You the type of chick that I tell my niggas I’d never do

Was supposed to be the pop off

Top me off every time she got dropped off

Somewhere in there all morals got lost

Looking like assault without a weapon

Shorty with her guard down and me without protection

Was thought that you can’t tame a ho

But if you should try and get denied you shouldn’t blame a ho

That’s the only game she know but I keep a poker face

Cause With all the shit that I hear about her

It be ashamed if niggas knew that really I cared about her

Started out respectable

Was just a good time but opened my mind

When she was that flexible

And changed the whole set of rules

Now instead of calling shorty a cab I let her stay

And honestly she might be the best mistake I’ve ever make

I messed up I started to care

Wish I could leave her right after we finished

But I stay in it

I messed up I feel in love with her

Not what I wanted or needed

But found it now tryna lose it

I messed up I messed up baby

I messed up