Hard Times - Emery

I sat there while you plead your case

For confidence and secrets to be erased

I was riddled by your words

I bet that you could hardly wait to send the cavalry

For me, you’re subtly replaced

With spoils

(My father told me)

Of your work

(Don't forget who you are, when you’re one step from death

You’ll still have your north star)

The things I

(My strength deceived me, I thought I’d own the world)

I know my worth isn’t

(But this fool I’ve become can’t see straight to forget her)

The loneliness of loving someone can steal your eyes

And spill the hope you had and you’re left to spin the why’s

By yourself and no one else, no one else

The trust you handed over, the people that you hurt

But you could never stop yourself, an addict for the worst

What you felt, were lies they’d sell and nothing else

So I sit here making my big plans

Like they could rescue me but now I see

The answer through my window

That nothing can replace

Those memories my father gave me

Are all that’s left but I’m ready

To escape this life

I’m sorry for the words I couldn’t say

I’m sorry that your efforts were in vain

You were promised so much more than I have gave

I’m not an honest man I was born for the grave

This city stole the faith you had in me

This mistress stole the life I hadn’t seen

But this face is the last thing they’ll see

I want to feel the sun and sky on my face as I die!