Evening Prayers -

Alone I spend another night

I close my book, I dim the light

I wait for sleep to numb my lonely ache

No rest I find inside my bed

No rest but yearning thoughts instead

And when I sleep my heart is still awake

This emptiness I feel within

Will cloud my head and burn my skin

My mind has thoughts no minister could take

Dreams fill me up with wild desires

The constant hope that never tires

And when I sleep my heart is still awake

Longing dances through my evening prayers

She ties my wrists and ankles to the bed

Her fingertips start a hunger that can only be filled

Never numbed

Longing robs you of your peace

A discontent that never sleeps

All walls of satisfaction she will break

Perhaps she breaks what she cannot mend

But she stays close and loyal as a friend

And when I sleep my heart is still awake

Now I have faith in God above

I have faith that I’ll find my love

And I hope I’m right, my whole heart is at stake

But faith and hope are hard to keep

And all this time I’m losing sleep

And when I sleep my heart is still awake