How Would I Feel? - Eric Roberson, Jean Baylor

Often she wrote, ‘fore she went to sleep

And now I think about the secrets that she keeps

Then one night I saw it resting there

I tried to ignore it but I was well aware

Inside it was stories, ones I didn’t know

Ones she never told me, ones I had to know

Would she write about another?

Some guy at her job that became her lover

God, I need to stop

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my emails

Searching through my phone

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my pockets

When she was home alone

Okay I will take a look, guess this page will do

I will just read one page, maybe two

Half an hour later and I cannot put it down

My insecurities won’t stop till the bad news is found

Not like she has done things to make me feel this way

But would she write inside this book if everything was okay?

I know that her ex calls from time to time

And her deep dark confessions are written in these lines

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my emails

Searching through my phone

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my pockets

When she was home alone

Reached the last page all I found was this

A poem called «I Love My Baby’s Kiss»

I put the book down and I sat right there and thought

She does not even know but I feel just like I’m caught

Eighty four pages she mostly wrote about me

And complaints about my storing

Was the worst that I seen

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my emails

Searching through my phone

How would I feel?

How would I feel?

If she was going through my pockets

When she was home alone

Girl, I need to know how would it feel

How would it feel?

Why don’t you trust me?

I thought I knew you

What did I ever do to make you feel so insecure?

Now you’ve got me wondering, can I trust you if you, if you don’t believe?

How should I feel?

How, how should I feel?

How should I?

You don’t believe

You don’t believe