Carousel - Everon

I hope one day I will grow out of this

Then I will leave this battlefield

Good or bad depends on your point of view

And I can see things from both sides

Just one more classic case of catch-22

Things don’t have a simple truth

So you ask where this is leading me

Only I don’t have an answer yet

Seeing things black and white is for the weak

I’m strong enough for shades of grey

While searching for the perfect compromise

I am driven to despair

So my thoughts are spinning around

For I know my problem well

And I wonder, will I ever get

Out of this carousel

You are trying in vain

To reach me with your hands

But all that I can say

Is I hope you understand

So I am caught between the chairs again

While everybody else does fine

It’s just my nature to move back and forth

Always trying not to offend

I cannot decide whether to refuse

Or to reach out for your helping hand

So my thoughts are spinning around

For I know my problem well

And I wonder, will I ever get

Out of this carousel

You are trying in vain

To reach me with your hands

But all that I can say

Is I hope you understand

Meanwhile I’m trying to make up my mind

Feeling like I’m paralysed

What’s the sense of it all, is it…

Because of you and I

Because of fear

Or just because of all

That I wish to have near

It’s about really stupid things

But they keep growing until

They seem to tear me apart

So my thoughts are spinning around

For I know my problem well

And I wonder, will I ever get

Out of this carousel

You are trying in vain

To reach me with your hands

You ask for explanations

Until things make sense

Well, I don’t have any

So all that I can say is

I hope you understand

It is because you and I

Because of fear

Because of all

That I wish to have near

It’s about really stupid things

Of no major size

But they keep on growing

Until a part of me dies