Imbalance - Extortionist

Here I am, a broken man

Trying to make it through these days

Trying the best i can

To silence the voice that lurks inside my head

To cease the desire to be one with the dead

I never thought my life would come to this

A mental illness that I wish did not exist

I used to feel alive.

Now I feel nothing

I feel empty inside

I’m not worth anything

I would give up all i have just to feel something

I would give all i have to not feel like this

My times' running out.

I’m drowning in self doubt, my insecurities and a

haunting voice that I wish would get out

Rid me of these thoughts before all hope is lost

Rid me of these thoughts before I’m dead and gone

I wake up every day with a decision that I have to face

Do i continue to live this life that I hate?

I feel dead to the world.

Nothing but worthless in my eyes

Constantly asking myself why do i even try?

I try my best to pull myself off of the floor

No matter what I do I still hear death knocking on my door

I have been in search of something more

I can’t keep living a life that i fucking deplore

Clouded vision, caused by all the hurt

My moral compass has lead me face down in the dirt

I’ve lost my worth and i can’t be saved

I’ve dug my own grave now please forget my face