Self-Destruction - Golden Dawn

I feel a manic obsession

Let me suffer and I’ll obey you

Sweet torment caresses my lust

I’m a servant to whatever hurts

Self-destruction, beloved enemy

Self-destruction, beyond remedy

Pain holds me down but my spirit awakes

Lament and gloom feed the demon within

The scars in my flesh

reflect the scars in my soul

Thanatomiania, a secret suicide

Self-destruction, beloved enemy

Self-destruction, beyond remedy

Self-destruction, master of disharmony

Self-destruction, mirrored through misanthropy

Misery is precious treasure

It makes my dead soul feel alive

Calamity is my only pleasure

In a world so cold nothing’s worth to strive

I feel severed from this life,

I feel severed from god’s creation

The moment of death will be my rescue

nothingness heals all wounds

Oblivion is my benediction

the loss of life my greatest gift

The blood that runs out of my veins

makes me calm

For the first time in my life

I feel satisfied

Eradicate my mortality

release me into eternity