Unstable - Gopal

Yo, swear down man I’m feeling unstable

These days man it feels like I don’t even know myself and I’m going through

these phases

Running out of time, trap to the latest

I can’t sleep cah the pressure on my mind

Yeah I might have a smile on my face but it doesn’t really mean I’m feeling

alright

You could never know the things I’m feeling inside

Heh, so I numb myself tryna take this pain

As a kid, me I went through so much struggle that it could’ve gone a different

way

Never done road but I come from ends so I know that it’s really not a game

Cah when you walk that path, you can only end up in pen or dead in a grave

Only just realising that I might have PTSD from when Nan passed away

I couldn’t even mourn, had to help my Mum so I had to try stay brave

And all this time I been powering through, going so damn hard, but I might’ve

just damaged myself in the process

Some days man I feel so hopeless

I came in the game with the cleanest heart, I been doubting myself,

am I ever gonna make it

Same time, I don’t wanna be stuck in a office, I ain’t got no choice but work

hard and make it

Yeah I got a degree, but see the 9−5 life, no it wasn’t for me

I got the biggest of dreams

I can’t settle for a 30k salary, that isn’t gonna cut it, you see

I went from hanging 'round baitest man, to hanging with no one but myself

How comes I do things but no ones there when I need help

I feel suffocated, I don’t know who to trust, but I don’t wanna appear

vulnerable

So I jus fix myself without telling anybody the things that I be going through

Really got demons up in my mind

All them girls, they left me declined

Me I been so damn low, seen the world spin round and the time go by

Hindu boy, me I stay on my Deen, I can feel the evil eye on me

It’s me against me, going mad in my head and I’m due to blow, can’t take that

from me

Yeah, and there’s really been times when I’ve wanted to top myself

But thank God, me I stopped myself, I keep on writing, I just can’t stop myself

I really grew up in a different, different, man can’t tell 'bout streets and

wisdom

Bare man are just out 'ere switching, that’s why I keep social distance