Forever ... (is a long time) - Halsey

I spent a long time

Watering a plant made out of plastic

And I curse the ground for growing green

I spent a long time

Substituting honest with sarcastic

And I curse my tongue for being mean

Weightless, breathless restitute

Motionless and absolute

He cut me open

Sucked the poison from an aging wound

Now 50,000 walking deads

Would cower at this small brunette

It's a nice surprise knowing six feet high

Would reach and grab the moon if I should ask

Or just imply that I want you to be more light

So I could look inside his eyes

And get the colors just right

Just right, just right

Just

Built love, built God, built provinces

Built calluses, break promises

'Cause I could never hold a perfect thing

And not demolish it

What am I thinking?

What does this mean?

How could somebody ever love me?

Talk to your man, tell him he's got bad news coming