99% - Heart Attack Man

Where’s the part when someone jumps

Out and tells me I’m asleep?

Where’s the part that takes a turn

And twists inward unexpectedly?

Where’s the part where I’m convinced

That I’m hated by my friends?

Where’s the part that fucks me up

And makes me feel the missing parts again?

I don’t deserve to feel this comfortable in my own skin

I’m 99% convinced this isn’t real

Is this even real?

Why did I keep holding on

Like my life was in your hands?

It’s impossible for me

To ever fully understand

Something tells me there’s a chance

I’ve made it through the other end

I can feel myself return

From the shape that I was wrapped around and bent

If I said that I’ve looked back, then I’d be lying

Firmly press my shaking hands against my ears

If I said I felt alive, I felt like dying

I feel like myself for the first time, the first time in years

Where’s the part that I forget

Every fucked up little thing

That made me feel like 1%

Just the smallest part of me?

I don’t deserve to feel this comfortable in my own skin

I’m 99% convinced this isn’t real

Is this even real?

Is this even real?