Infidel -

I wish I had a window but

I’m 12 feet underneath the ground

And I’d rather stare at dirt

Than the dry wall of vibrating sound

Probably better than the gray skies

Yet I’ve been unaware of the weather

For what seems like forever

Staring at what divides

Me from reality-

Sitting on old leather

They preach about getting all the treasure

I’m just writing words with my lucky feather

Hoping I get better

But I’m inconsistent

Consistently inconsistent

I feel as though I am distant

Catch myself reminiscing

But that shits gone with

This sheltering creates the madness

And I am one with it

Scratching at the stained canvas

Crazy he compared it to bat shit

I’m in a cave

Where my thoughts cannot escape it

I am the cave and I cannot escape it

You cannot escape it

You cannot escape the thought

The thoughts cannot escape you

Never ending cannot tune out

You cannot avoid it

So surrender to it

Become one with it

Let it eat you from the inside

Cannot escape I’ve tried

Has me living within a lie

Nowhere to hide but

The mind

Minds like prisons

Obsessions with obsessions

As a man creates his gods

Clear as a prism, blue eyes reflect the tension

Putting life into inconceivable odds

No longer searching for the vision

Because the book is all in like with commission

Acting like they have the answers to death

While claustrophobic of the pods

Looking for a key when there’s no lock

Just the sheer weight of the dirt

So you get on your knees

Clasps your hands toward the cathedral glass to illustrate the hurt

Tell him why your existence matters to reserve a spot

In an infinite projected image of what is in your thought

Drink the poison

Eat your crackers

I’m just chilling

Enjoying life and that’s what really matters

Tell me different