Plagued by Catharsis - Internal Bleeding

Trapped within this spiral torment

I have now unleashed my hell

As I stare through my dimension

Pained emotions start to swell

Struggling with this intent to kill myself

My life is worthless, something I’ve always felt

No one cares about me, so why should I?

Gun to head, knife to throat

Now it’s time to die

Scorned by my peers, my friends, my family

This is fucked up because they should be helping me

I am the one who puts myself through this shit

Razor in my hand, my wrists will be slit

I must realize what this is doing to me

Selfish meditation, can’t I see?

Happiness is what I need

It is my wish but there’s too much pain

When I’m plagued by catharsis

I am the one that feels this pain

Rain-fallen tears are not my gain

Self-pity is something I hate

Now it is time for a clean slate

Making a mark is what I’ll do

Keep on pushing, death to the fool

My life, no longer black

I’ve got myself back and it’s time for me to change

Self-pity is gone

I now feel strong

To conquer all that is thrown at me

Feel the power of my soul

Now the future is my goal

Plagued by catharsis

I will rise above

Plagued by catharsis

Standing proud

Plagued by catharsis

I now understand

Plagued by catharsis

My reign at hand

Release myself unto this world!

My repressed rage will now take form

My new being, I am now born

Living in this state of anguish is no longer feasible

True to myself I am living, it is getting easier

I am happy because I now hate

No more sorrow, bring forth this trait

Weight is lifted from my shoulders

My feelings are growing colder

No longer plagued by catharsis

Now my rage is getting stronger

Erased thoughts of my once loved

I will not allow myself to get close to anyone

I don’t need your sympathy

Content in my misery

Just leave me alone