The Girl I Never Had - Jpaulished

Let me tell you bout this girl I always wanted

Like always

But I was way too much of a bitch back then

To even say anything to her

Let me take you back…

I always heard your name

They was hypin

I didn’t think you was that bad

I had decided

Until I seen that ass

Walk by

I couldn’t hide it

The look on my face

You shoulda seen it

Shit was priceless

And at that moment

I knew that I was wrong

I knew that one day

I write about you in a song

I blew it back then

But thankfully the boy has grown

I wish I had your 10 digits

Right now in my phone

(damn)

I’m reminiscing bout the girl

I never had

She probably got man

Damn that is shit sad

Thinking bout my past

Wishing I could get it back

Only for second

I’m the first one to finish last

Or something like that

Some real smart shit

Poetic

Art shit

You was just

A smart kid

And there was me

Stupid on the team balling

Tried play in college

Got there

I was not picked

Fucking idiot

I know I am

Tryna win the race

Noticing how fucking slow I am

The turtle always

Beats the hare

What I was thinking

I think I got it wrong

Can’t believe what I was thinking

You probably think i’m brainless

Like the fate of Abe Lincoln

Tried to tread water

But my body stayed sinking

Shoulda tried harder

But her body too different

Got intimidated

When them hips started shifting

Hard in the paint

Blake Griffen

God just to think

If I hit it

I’d cheese for week

Like a Green Bay fitted

Sick of these cheap scape

Bitches

Wishing I had done my past different

Like

Like maybe I would I have you

Instead of tryna smash a bitch

In the bathroom

And constantly sad alone

In a bad mood

With all this empty space in here

My house looking like a castle

Looking for my queen to complete it

Your body like a wonderland

Damn that shit is scenic

If this was game of thrones

Well

You would be Khaleesi

You hotter than tomalleys

Oh my god I got a fever

We could be best friends

Pam and Gina

Damn

No bever

Ain’t no man in this land

Good enough for your hand

Me either

(damn)

But what if?

I could just cut it

Be Brad Pitt

Benjamin button

Never stop loving

You till the moon

Don’t shine in the heavens

All for a chick that I met when

I was seventeen

Made a fantasy

About

A life between

You and me

If I didn’t ruin it

Thinking in the truest sense

Crossed my mind

Like a crucifix

What if you was Lucifer

And I was fucking losing it

All delusions in my head

In my bed snoozing

Bitches in my mind on the daily

And this time it was you

Woke up and felt amazing

I think I needed saving

From this life slaving

Everyday making

A song till i’m famous

Or maybe

This song

Is all about my fucking life

And how you changed it

Cause lately

I been thinking back

On my decisions

Everything that made me

Just a man on a mission

From the girls that turned me down

To the girls that made me miss em

The girls that made me fuck em

And the girls that made me kiss em

But nothing else different

Than that girl that you was wishing

Quiet in the distance

Scared to say shit

So you missed it

Now you tryna rewind time

And fix it

Sometimes you wish you could just go back

And fix everything you fucked up

How you wish you woulda

Handled situations knowing how they turned out

But the fucked up thing is

This just leads you down a path

Of sadness and anger

Cause in real

There ain’t no time machine

But what if???