What a Shame - Kathryn Gallagher

I’m in a box above the sky

Over mountains, rivers, and potted plants

And I imagined jumping and it didn’t feel bad

When I drive my car I imagine the crash

How would it feel, would I last?

I wanted to sing these words for so long

Put them in a poem and play this song

But how it’d kill my mother to think she did me wrong

Don’t you worry it’s just a song

I’m in a 7-Eleven by the detergent and first-aid kits

I see a man walk in and think

He could be the one to end all this

He could hold my life in his hands and choose it’s had enough

Would he know that I never have fallen in love?

If I went today

I’d have a laundry list of things I’m too afraid to say

I’d take them with me to by brand new grave

Oh, what a shame

Oh, what a shame

Well it’s a dark place to stand

Dreaming of death and holding it’s hand

I’m six years old again

In a princess dress my mother made

Running through a backyard maze

Getting that white dress all grass-stained

When I fall I get back up

When I’m hurtin', I cry it away

When did it get so hard to say what I want to say

When I meet the end

Sooner or later, it’ll come I’m sure of it

Watch the credits on my young life

Did I live like I could never die?

Waiting for a better time

Waiting for a different life

Oh, what a shame

Oh, what a shame