Nine - Liily

I smile at my shadow as it laughs back at me

My hands feel like they’re shrinking, I can barely feel my feet

Reminds me of old Sunday’s when the world on its tee

Never felt so normal, but so weird, to be a freak

Nine times I’ve lied

And nine times you healed

Nine times I wondered why you ever stayed with me

What if I can’t bleed when I cut with your razor?

What if I can’t see the way you go down?

What if I don’t know if this is the end all?

Nine times I’ve tried to be with you, my dear

If I can paint a picture of the future, I would

But darling, I can tell you it won’t be easy if I could

Never did I feel like I needed relief

From the suffering I went through just to get back on my feet

Nine times I’ve lied

And nine times you healed

Nine times I wondered why you ever stayed with me

Nine times I’ve shied away from you

Nine times I ran away

What if I can’t bleed when I cut with your razor?

What if I can’t see the way you go down?

What if I don’t know if this is the end all?

Nine times I’ve tried to be with you, my dear

Nine times

Oh, I feel it

Nine times

Oh, I feel it

Nine times

Oh, I feel it

Nine times

Oh, good lord, I feel it