Control - Liza Anne

Oh, I ran once

Took my fight across the ocean

I thought if I could make my way

Across the sea, I’d find a place

Now I’m swallowed up

By a city that doesn’t give a fuck

To whether I am up on time

Or whether if I’m, well, alive

And I’m so good, getting too good at hiding

Too good at keeping to myself

That I’m spiraling

I have fell before

For some who have wanted me more

Than I could’ve wanted them

Some call it selfishness

But I’m so scared

I’m so scared of the voices

They’re telling me I’ll end up alone

Oh I heard once

You only love when you’re lonely

And you smile when you’re hurting

So it doesn’t concern them

But I’m so tired

I’m just so tired of hiding

I’m so tired of keeping to myself

That I’m spiraling out of control

I’m so tired of keeping to myself