Forgotten - Lucidity

Look at my reflection I don’t know who’s lookin' back

I’m holding on to questions that I know I need to ask

I wish I could express it but I’m keepin' on my mask

I’m ready for redemption but not facin' all the facts

There’s a person that’s inside me, scared to show itself

But that piece of me is hiding, I know I’m overwhelmed and

I feel like I’ve been driving with no guidance and no help

So last night I sat in silence now I’m crying by myself

Now I’m lookin' at my dreams thinkin' I won’t ever make it

My life has got this theme where my heart is always breakin'

I don’t know what it means, I just know that I can’t take it

I don’t know what I need, so I’m stuck and can’t escape it

I’m pacin', I’m just thinkin' bout my thoughts

I don’t even understand, what’s the point of moving on?

And I wish I was connected but accepted that I’m lost

Cause I’ve always been obsessive, now I understand the cost

When I’m livin' like this

Been a long time, I’ve forgotten who I am

I don’t wanna die, but I know don’t wanna live

Wish I had you close, you forgot that I exist

Got me feelin' crazy, how the fuck could you forget?

Everything we been through, now don’t know my name

Told me I was special, nothing is the same

Nothing could be better, cause nothing ever change

Memories of us, that’s something I can’t take

Late nights just driving got nobody by my side

Never trusted since I met you, thinkin' I could be alright

But this loneliness is killin' me, I’m barely getting by

I just want someone to hold me, tell me that I’m doing fine

Tell me pretty lies, tell me that I do enough

Tell me that I’m worth it when I feel like I’m not good enough

Tell me that I’m capable when I feel like I’m giving up

When I get unstable, that’s the time that I start missin' us and wish that I

could

Take a time machine to see what I’m forgettin'

See the moment we were broken and I start regressin'

All I know is I was jealous, now I learned my lesson

But I know you hold regret with all the time invested

But this talk is cheap, I know I missed my chance

We could try again but there’s no way of goin' back

So I sit here by myself thinking bout the past

Now I see that I’m the reason that we couldn’t last

Fuck

Been a long time, I’ve forgotten who I am

I don’t wanna die, but I know don’t wanna live

Wish I had you close, you forgot that I exist

Got me feelin' crazy, how the fuck could you forget

Everything we been through, now don’t know my name

Told me I was special, nothing is the same

Nothing could be better, cause, nothing ever change

Memories of us, that’s, something I can’t take