Trephination - Machine Head

I used to want to take a Drill to my head

Let the pain out of the hole

I used to want to cut the

Veins in my neck

Cool the blood boiling my Soul

When I wondered, why my Daily headaches thundered

Tried to buffer, pushing

Down the pain I suffered

Mutilated, feeling so Humiliated

Cannot wash the dirt off

Underneath my skin

There was a part of me left

Far behind

When at the age of five

Years old

I had my innocence taken

From me Emptiness would fill the

Hole

Now a second grader,

Thinking why I dont feel

Better

Why Im filthy, why the hell

I feel so guilty

When drawing stick men

Of pornographic men and

Women

Thinking all the time

Theres something wrong

With me Everyday for three years

From dawn til dusk a Migraine

Would take me and break me And itd cripple me so Much that

In dreams, itd seem, with

A hole in my temple

That I could probably make

My headaches finally go Away

Trephination

Trephination

The enemy inside of me Wont let me free

Wants me to bleed

And after three years now

My headaches wear off

For reasons not quite to Me known

The acupuncture needles

Sticking my skin

Pushed them down as far

As theyd go But now Im older and now

Inside my anger smolders

From depression, to fighting

Taking out my vengeance

Consequences, now id Question during sex if …

Is this how it fucking feels

Or am I faking it?

No longer the child that

You left there at the bart

Tracks

Im now at 17, left in an Empty blackness

On drugs, with thugs, and

Thinking «goddamn?

«Im ending up in a failure,

In the gutter passed out

Trephination

Trephination

This enemy inside of me Wont let me free

Wants me to bleed

Now Im older and in this

Man an anger smolders

Now Im thinking a hole in You is what Im seeing

Your depression, is the

Dent I kick in you in Vengeance

Consequences are the pain

Id give to you

I know that Im dreaming,

But in this dream I go in

Go through it, and end it And though Id never do it Im killing you, hand on The trigger — pull it Your final thoughtll be a Bullet in your fuckin head

Trephination

Trephination

This enemy inside of me Im now killing

To make me free.