How Can I Love - Manika

If I confessed to you

That it’s all been a show

My heart is bleeding blue

I can’t stand myself at all

And what I dread the most

Is if I let you too close

You’ll see shadows haunting me

And you will leave me ghost

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?

I can’t escape this overwhelming pain

I wish there was a way I could be saved

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

I wish there was a way, to open my heart to you

I feel so far away, laying here next to you

So I put on my mask, and I paint on my smile

Maybe one day I’ll have the strength to let you see all my scars

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?

I can’t escape this overwhelming pain

I wish there was a way I could be saved

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

Look up and down, I’m surrounded by darkness

Demons all around, they’ve turned me into heartless

Colder than a glacier

I wish I could erase the hate that I’ve felt and the scars that I have

And I’m drowning in tears, and I’m drowning shame

And I can’t escape my fears or any of this pain

To the girl who stares me in the mirror, don’t let them see who you really are

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

How can I love when it feels like I’m drowning?

I can’t escape this overwhelming pain

I wish there was a way I could be saved

How can I love when I don’t even like me?

How can I love when it’s something I don’t know?

Oh no

How can I love when I don’t even like me?