Horror - Myelin

Once I start I can’t stop, I want it all till it’s gone

When you’re lost in the middle, looking up but coming down, you unravel

When you sink into silence;

walls up and eyes open

You see it all but don’t say a word

Close the windows, pull the blinds down, put my back on the bedroom door

To keep it all out and this panic in

I’ve got to think that we’re fixable because you’re stuck in my skin and I

can’t scratch you out

I’ve always had these violent dreams of bodies and buildings burning down

And I’m running and running and I can’t look back behind at what’s chasing

I wake up cold sweat, lifeless, pounding headache

But I used to love the escape

Now I finally get it when parents say they’d kill for their children Because I

don’t sleep deep, I am permanently awake

I can’t think about escape

Close the windows, pull the blinds down, put my back on the bedroom door

To keep it all out and this panic in

I’ve got to think that we’re fixable because you’re stuck in my skin and I

can’t scratch you out

Why is it impossible to tell you what I’m thinking when it’s all I think about?

Sometimes I’ve got to hear the voices out before I can shut them down

Close the windows pull the blinds down, put my back on the bedroom door

Burn the boats and flood the tunnel

Wall off the island and throw me inside it

Sometimes to get better you’ve got to get worse first