I Am Not Afraid - Owen Pallett

«I am not afraid,» ze said

«Of the non-believer within me

No delight at the pain of my enemies

No tears for any friends I have lost»

«You are not alone,» I said

It is a trial to keep my belief suspended

I leave my violin unattended

In a cab or a restaurant

And then when ze started to sing

Nobody could’ve called them crazy

Open chord forever unchanging

Holy eternal drone

I’ll never have any children

I’d bear them and eat them, my children

I’m gonna change my body

In the light and the shadow of suspicion

I am no longer afraid

The truth doesn’t terrify us, terrify us

My salvation is found in discipline, in discipline

I haven’t had a smoke in years

But I will catch a drag if you are smoking

They told me to chew on a toothpick

They told me to take a deep breath

What is better is to punch a wall

To bin the boxes of your old love letters

To be impassive to the words that could save you

To need to see the world as ash

And I’ll never have any children

I would bear them and confuse them, my children

And I’m not at all afraid of changing

But I don’t know what good it would do me

I am no longer afraid

The truth doesn’t terrify us, terrify us

My salvation is found in discipline, in discipline