Grandma - Paris Monster

I’m overmatched, undermanned

I’m trying hard to understand

crushed beneath and once of hope and flattened by your heavy hand

I know you’re giving it your everything, you’re letting me down.

You she’s gone for the good of all of us

and so I should be thankful for the light that lies ahead and be it understood

that I have everything while everything is letting me down.

You say in love we tend to hide

we lose ourselves, we die inside

devotion takes the place of self reliance

soon will follow pride

and that is why I cannot listen to you

Grandma not now.

I never lost myself at all

I may have slipped, I didnt fall

I never hid, I didn’t die, my pride’s intact

I’m standing tall

I gave her everything till everything was letting her down.

I don’t know if she understands,

or ever will

but I know that we’re better off,

and better still.

ohhhh

I hear that she’s laughing more,

then she had been

so I know thather bitter heart

is sweat again.

May it put your mind to rest

my worry lies with her investing

all she had in someone so alone

is not the healthiest

not that I grew, not that i thrived

beside a woman so sour.

Oh I had more to give, I know

I guess I just assumed she’d lower

certain expectations given life

had flung me to and thro

and it was all that I could do to stop

from shutting right down.

I should have told her, I confess

your bitter heart is such a mess

and every little drop of blood,

and ounce of love, a pound of stress

she never mentioned that was something

that was bringing her down.

I dont know if she understands,

or ever will

but I know that she’s better off,

and better still

ohhhh

I hear that she’s laughing more

than she had been

so I know that her bitter heart

is sweet again.