Green Star - Pears

Lowly imps of pity swarm like buzzards in the sun

to lull me to sleep in my crib

I dream of you and then I dream of something else,

I lust to be lustful once more.

Recounting failures I have failed once again,

the kismit I cannot ignore.

Inside of this crater I have combed for days

for any small sliver, moments looped, replayed

I wanted to save you,

I haven’t the strength to save us both

I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast

I still get your messages,

no flickers of light will bring you back, what was almost blinding

fades slowly to black.

Alone, confused with a body I abused, silence, silenced by a monster in my

place,

defeat, passenger seat, driver steals my voice and wears my face

I wanted to save you, I haven’t the strength to save us both,

I long to be near you, your ship is now miles out from my coast,

I still get your messages,

they’re useless but mean the world to me, recalling my mother,

smiling down at the proud little boy I used to be

This river runs higher,

to all I’ve ever desired,

I washed up on purpose,

drowning on the surface,

in envy of what he became, a dying green star