Inside Out -

Red flows a river along the pavement of grey

Doctor says he’s sorry there’s nothing more he can do

Guilt swells like an unnoticed tumour dwelling in you

A hospital bed never was meant to support long-term stay

Captive and doomed inside your room;

nurses smile, you obey

Visiting hours, you clutch my hand like a child and whisper my name

But I won’t be the cold compress comfort soothing your shame

This isn’t like you

Something more noble than iron courses through your veins

Shining and righteous, always immune

So where is your armour now?

My messiah

Standing so tall, you were always aware

Scream as I might, you would not hear my prayer

Whims of the flesh never tempt the divine

I offered you psalms, you politely declined

How the tables have turned

Now, never to walk in the light again

Mortality ruined the spell you cast

You’re never to rise to your promised land

Your disciples have fled, left behind is just the mask

But I see you

(I see you) Healthy and vibrant, so beautiful and naive

(I see you) Helpless and bleeding, you’re begging me not to leave

(I see you) Wishing and considering traveling back in time

(I see you) And I just can’t make up my mind

Now I’m standing at the crossroads, I don’t know which way to go

The voices I once followed have left me alone

Burdened with nostalgia, I’m the only one who knows you

The knife is in my hand now: forgive or expose you?

I see you