Depression - Problematic

I make assumptions,

But i feel like maybe i am the blame,

I got scars that last forever to remember the pain,

When my homie passed away i felt like doing the same,

Do u try to crack a smile through the darkest of days,

Do u know what growin up without a father was like,

Do u suffer from depression sick of livin a lie,

I have regrets and i wish that i could simply forget,

Theres gotta be a better option i dont wanna be dead,

Cus in my head,

I cant seem to find the positive thinkin,

Im pushin everyone thats closed to me away and im sinkin,

To the bottom will i ever find the strength that i

Need, will i make my momma happy will i conquer this dream,

Cus if i dont then atleast i can say that i tried,

I spent alot of lonely nights where i whimpered and cried,

Mental illness aint a joke it will eat u alive,

U could lose everything u love in

The blink of an eye, and now im sayin