Your Creation - Prozak

Looking back I never really had a chance

Alien misguided outcast

Haunted from the ghost of my past

Soul is broke, but my body intact

Deep inside I was catatonic

Traumatised from the childhood violence

Never really thought about the effect on this

Life that I’m living I’m just being honest

Thinking about it all makes me nauseous

So pissed off, can’t stop this process

Misery, my life’s synopsis

Set me free, I cannot stop this

I don’t really know where to go from here

But one thing is crystal clear

Any chance of a normal life disappeared

But the pain gave me this here career so

I don’t know if I should love you or hate you for

Making me this way

But I just want to thank you for

The gift of insane

(Now)

I’m thinking about it all, I’m forsaken

(You)

Made me this way, I’m your creation

I’m alienated

And everything inside of me that’s ever been good

Has all been stripped away from

And never to return and I’m trapped here in this isolation

Like a prison in my body that I can’t escape from this devastation

On top of my stress so I’ll never truly be free

And everything inside of me’s grey

People tryna look at what they can’t understand

So I just push 'em away

Ashamed to admit it, I’m not capable of feeling the same

Do you know what it’s like to live life locked inside a cage?

Thinking about all of this I don’t want to be free

(Here in my life I’m drowning, lost inside)

(Here in my mind I’m dying all the time)

Living this life disconnected

Pretend to make friends, but no connection

Isolation without affection, but my two sons are the one exception

Spitting images of my reflection

Without the darkness and imperfection

The light they shine is my direction

Their existence is my redemption

A second chance to right the wrongs of this life that I led

When I’m dead and gone maybe I will live on

Like the lyrics of a song that nobody’s ever heard, feel me?

Just fade away, finally embrace this vacant space

The endless grave without a trace

Back to the place from which I came

But for now all remains the same

No matter what I do

And we both know who is to blame

And all you put me through