Solanine - Rav

When I’m lucid I wish to lose id, Instead I lose it

Self consumed, in my room pursuing music

Momma asking «Where the fruits is?

Why are you useless?

Why are you clueless about the world?

Rav, your room stinks!»

She thinks I don’t give two shits

Truth is, she might be right

I fail to see the light in both gold and family pride

Am I the catcher in the rye?

Batshit in disguise?

Tossed reality for an imaginable life?

Bout to be kicked out the house, get detached from paradise

Only recognize this then, mirror shows a parasite

With a shifty pair of eyes

In this shifting paradigm

I ain’t shit, apparently

Parents think that I don’t try

Trying to fight the system, bound to play into its hands, man

They say stay grounded, but the floor is lava for the madman

Upside down approach, in the lava doing handstands

Probably ain’t no different, just a bad plan

(This is what it feels like…)

This is what real life feels like

Whenever you feel nice, realize

Yo, I gotta take advice

There’s a demon lurking in this town

I gotta jump the rail of life

This is what real life feels like

Yup, this is what real life feels like

See, this is what it feels like

When nobody looking for you, but you still hide

When you been kicked your habits like the pill life

Took that monkey off your back but it still bites

Will I ever get anywhere but right here?

Chasing happiness but never getting quite near

Every waking moment most vivid of nightmares

I’m weird, fuck it, I’ll admit it, man, I care

And they say he was a thug

I never knew my dad

When my mom looks at me, what it is she looking at?

Ever since I got kicked out of school for cooking crack

Then pushing crack, I wonder if she sees me as my crooked dad

I’ve fucked up too many times, and I still might

Tried to kill myself and failed, still don’t feel alive

Grasping at straws in the dark with no real light

I ain’t feeling great

This is what real life feels like

Right?

(This is what it feels like…)

This is what real life feels like

Whenever you feel nice, realize

Yo, I gotta take advice

There’s a demon lurking in this town

I gotta jump the rail of life

This is what real life feels like

Yup, this is what real life feels like