Forgive Me, Lord - Reef The Lost Cauze, Emynd

And I know He watching over me\nI know He knows I robbed them niggas that was owing me\nAnd He know I had a ho or three blowing me\nWhile my ex girl was on the phone with me\nI hope He understands\nI hope He can see that I ain’t perfect, I’m just a man\nBut that excuse is cold fate\nAnd I know it won’t get me past them gold gates\nMan I stole destiny and sold faith\nMan I stole weaponry and sold eights\nNo homo but it’s hard to go straight\nWhen you’ve been living crooked since your birth date\nI ain’t ask to be here in the first place\nI ain’t know my man would snitch after that case\nLittle Moogie\nStill behind the stone gate\nA brick wall\nBut that was his own fate\nI feel guilty like I ain’t help enough\nBut I did all I could do that’s what I tell myself\nTemptation too great, it’s like I can’t help myself\nI know the limit but it’s like I gotta test myself\nGo back to that? I refuse to let myself\nWhen you ain’t got cash it’s hard to check yourself\nJust because I don’t rap about that life\nIt don’t mean I don’t know about that life\nOnly thing that save me was that mic\nWhen push come to shove I push that white\nOr I grab that mask and grab that purse\nBut I hear my niggas that pass saying «You gon' end up in a hearse»\n«Forgive me Lord I know I ain’t living right\nGotta feed the block, gotta gotta feed the block»\nI gotta feed the block, my niggas need saving\nLook at me and be like, «Reef you made it.»\nThey never been to Paris, never been to Vegas\nSome ain’t been past the hood they was raised in\nThey feel trapped, yeah they feel caged in\nBut through rap, I take them\nEven if they ain’t got no plane ticket\nThey feel hope cause they know that they brother is the main ticket\nOn warm days, I visit, we sit and kick it\nGeeking out at the pictures of the bitches\nAll of that crowd looking sickening\nJumping all crazy, repeating every word that I mention\nThen they stand at attention, I can’t believe it\nI say, «If you see it then you can be it.»\nYou ain’t got to rob, sell dope or go cheat a nigga\nHope and power that’s how I feed my niggas