No Matter How Much - Sierra Swan

No matter how much you know me

No matter how much you say you love me

No matter how much I appear that I’m with you

No matter how hard I try I still can’t trust you

I’ve received all the signs and erased the visions

I’ve been given your lines but muted the meaning

These months pass me by and still I’ve failed to learn

That after all we’ve been through I still can’t hear you

But oh I’m so sorry

Because this life has made me cruel

And after all of that I realize

Especially you

No matter how much you come to my room

No matter how much you see me as a good friend

No matter how much I appear to love you

No matter how hard I try I still can’t trust you

You handed me your selfishness and I threw it all away

You’ve given me heartache disguised as tough love but it’s pain

Tears upon my pillow

I hate to say it but i’d rather live this life alone

But oh I’m so sorry

Because this life has made me cruel

And after all of that I realize

Especially you

Stay or go

But either way it’s hard to know

That you and me

Will always be the tide below

Pulling me in

Pulling me in

Pulling me in

But oh I’m so sorry

Because this life has made me cruel

And after all of that I realize

Especially you