I Should Die Today - Soul Khan

With everything I need in me girl

I’m saying, everything here

Was once such sweet sweet love

It was a summer unlike any other, loving was hot and heavy

Plus she had crazy legs, so we was rocking steady

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Should have known better, soul

Homie, you ain’t gotta tell me

Daydreaming in this meadow of steel

I was a couple of levels above head over heels

Physique that could weaken a celibate monk

Sweetheart demeanor was a delicate front

We were both especially young

So anything that I expected was ahead of the gun

But one night, she wasn’t checking her phone

I should have left it alone, but I knew she had that nose that tended to run

I was stressing and panicking, had abandonment issues

I was texting and calling, hollering like damn it, I miss you

She said she’s deading it, I said you know the past that i’ve been through

But she ain’t even wanna talk about it, so all I thought about it was

With everything I need in me girl

I’m saying, everything here

Was once such sweet sweet love

Now here’s the part of it I never really brought up before

Cause I ain’t wanna trouble my sister and mom anymore

But since the beat is still rolling and I gotta record

Let’s address the messes I made soon as I walked out the door

For starters, I was drunk daily

Stuck in a rut a paleontologist couldn’t dig me out of to unveil me

Soul was the titanic, no boat or a life jacket

Another week of this and my blood would become bailey’s

Like what the hell’s occurring?

Waking up in union square smelling like somebody else’s urine

Clothes moldy like I never knew they sell detergent

Overdramatic acting like I was in hell and burning

Or sometimes sitting on the train platform, letting my legs dangle

Thinking maybe I should jump down, getting my flesh mangled

Luckily hesitated and stopped my decline

And reconnected with some friends who told me I would be fine, I told ‘em

With everything I need in me girl

I’m saying, everything here

Was once such sweet sweet love