WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?! - Spose

Why do I?!

Why do I do this to myself?!

Why do I?!

Why do I do this to myself?!

Why can’t I?!

Give it up?

Let it go?

Why can’t I?!

Give it up?

Four, three, two, one

I shouldn’t do it, I do it, I will be ruined

I’m screwin' myself, I’m clueless, I blew it, I shouldn’t follow

My mind, 'cause it’s racin' and pacin'

Devices I’m chasin', adjacent to desolation, we all know

I’m fucked, gambled thousands of bucks

Down on my luck, in the dirt, now I’m stuck

Hold up, give me my turn, to play with fire, get burned

Had this outcome before, I guess I didn’t learn, no

I shouldn’t smoke it, it’s useless, but if I see it, I do it

A fuckin' loser, a doofus, I saw my future, it’s stupid

Look vegetated and gruesome, it’s conducive to bruises

A veggie plate 'cause it’s fruitless, but here we go again

Spent a wonder to snag it and I just opened the baggy

Yo, this is gonna be magic, I get my grip then I grab it

I twist it, lick it and wrap it, I’m not addicted, it’s habit

Flick the Bick and it’s flashin'

And then I get a call from daycare, my daughter’s pukin', need daddy

I’m paranoid and I shower, I’ll be there in an hour

I hear the devil, he chortle, fuck, I hope I look normal

Feel like I fell through a portal, got in my chevy and sped

I think I need some meds, is my wife mad we met?

How my eyes?

Are they red?

How my future is?

Dead?

Can’t get out of my head, can I be you instead?

Lay awake in my bed, look in the mirror and said

Why do I?!

Why do I do this to myself?!

Why do I?!

Why do I do this to myself?!

Why can’t I?!

Give it up?

Let it go?

Why can’t I?!

Give it up?

Four, three, two, one

I can’t let

No one but me

Down this road

Down this rabbit hole

I can’t let

I can’t bring you

I do

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